December 2010
24 posts
So. Hungry.
My birthday feels different than it usually does. I’m not exactly excited because I’m rather frightened by adventurous prospects. I haven’t asked for anything, so no presents until I can think of something I want. Tomorrow I’m having lunch at my favorite restaurant with my Mother, Father, and Andrea. Later I’m getting an oreo cake. Events follow.
I’m making a...
Habanero
Where did the sanctity of things go? Where did the sanity leave to? I’m alright shrouded in something, hidden in a good song and a bowl serving size of hibiscus tea.
When my Brother speaks to me like a human being, pats my head, grabs me water, and looks at me like I’m not missing something, it’s satisfactory. I want your ideals to become true, and I promise I’ll watch...
“If your rabbit is hiding or running from something, it is most probably entering...”
– Or maybe I just like rabbits too much..?
“Limes are the key to everything..”
– Andrea, oh my god, I love you.
"The Brad Pitt Rule..."
”..Imagine that instead of you, Brad Pitt had asked this same woman out. Would she use the same excuse with him? If Brad Pitt asked her on a date, would she still say she had to study or was going to the movies with friends that night? Nope. She would have dropped pretty much anything and everything to be able to accept a date with Brad.” - Art of Manliness
I wonder if I made the...
Unseasonably discontent
Scrooge-esque, I know. Maybe I’ll go out, dress nicely. Spending time away from anything, It’ll be better.
I don’t understand what’s going on.
A cold sun
Hours long Taylor Swift special, Picasso leftovers, and the making of many wishlists.
“dear reader,
do you know something?
those who keep asking the same question...”
– this kind of fire by Charles Bukowski
“I want so much for her to let me down and get it over with.”
– 4/15/2010
Ratatat
The longer I’m here, the worse I feel. My eyes are drooping again, and I’m altogether not well.
Last night was pleasant. I’m happy we can reconnect after the unfortunate weekend we’d experienced, and how I’d reacted with callousness. I approve of your relationship and his sister, and being around them is refreshing. I especially like Candace(sp?) and her personality, plus Collin’s thought...
Compression
I like collecting. I like to organize things, and I’m still fond of buttons. And sometimes I try to remember what magenta tastes like, but that’s one of the farther away memories. I like piles of books, candle light. I absolutely adore candle light with my incense. I could go back and buy a million incense matches, I could. Its cold, and you’re sick, so I’ll fetch you food....
Oh sweet apathy
Sometimes I feel responsible for the way things turned out. Then I remember this isn’t my fault. I didn’t do this, you did, and I have every right to be hurt, angry, sad, frustrated, hopeless, any of the such. Though, I don’t want to. I don’t want to experience that sort of resentment. I only want to be left alone. I only want to forget about the past years events and let go of the anchor holding...
