December 2009
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WatchOh yes, ramble on.
I don't want to think about it.
brynnnn:
But it’s all I can think about, you and her.
I’m trying so hard to push it out of my mind.
But it just keeps coming back and destroying me, no matter how hard I try.
Yeah. It fucking sucks.
I know all of the things I have done to cause pain are insurmountable. I know that I have surpassed being just a ‘bad person’. What I’ve done I pay for in vomit, tears, alcohol, revenge, lack of sleep, depression, you name it. But I can’t take it. I can not take being betrayed, being expected to uphold normality when that is wrong. I’m not okay. This is not okay....
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My mind becomes an asylum
I just know that I’ve been fucked over, and I want to hurt something. My hates grown. Every thing is frustrating. Apparently I pronounce frustrating wrong. Everything I eat makes me sick. Fuck this Christmas break. I will be absent from December 25th - January 3rd. In my dreams I’m always falling, never to find the ground.
Why?
I’m progressing in anger. In sadness. In confused...
In the Morning by The Junior Boys
Remember?
If I ever feel better
You don’t have me analyzed, pinned down, and deciphered. My head isn’t penetrable so stop trying to get inside. You may come close, you may have some guesses but you’re not on the money. I sit up late watching the bugs crawl around underneath my skin, I dream of them escaping and all the horrible things that would be revealed. I take the drugs with orange juice, every kind. And...
“So listen to the sound of the river, it’s inaudible cause you don’t...”
– Playradioplay!
AHHHH
My octopus stomach is a fuhreaking bitch. It hurts like hell.
First exam was easy, and I finished my art project (Self-portrait). It didn’t actually turn out horribly and I plan on posting a picture of it eventually :).
I have my tie-dye(sp?) shirt on from last years 4/20 day, and I’m wondering if anyone’s going to do it again this year. Hm.
HAVE A GOOD SECOND EXAM DAY!...
Hookah, throw up, alcohol, that, my realization.
The waters really beautiful. I’m not cold anymore. The creeks relaxing, the fogs already rolled in.
“He ate my heart. He ate my brain. That boy is a monster.”
– Lady Gaga - Fame Monster
quinciesullivan:
My Dearest Allie.
I couldn’t sleep last night because I know that it’s over between us.
I’m not bitter anymore, because I know that what we had was real.
And if in some distant place in the future we see each other in our new lives,
I’ll smile at you with joy and remember how we spent the summer beneath the trees,
learning from each other and growing in love.
The best love...
Tightened teeth
I’m all snuggled up at home, in this nice electric blanket my Mom decided to buy for me. My teeth really can’t stand these retainers and I think they’re giving me a mad headache. Skipped yoga today because Emery couldn’t go, but got to spend more time with Mackenzie. Apple cider, or ethanol? I feel so, so very sickened.
An octopus lives in my stomach.
Whos going
lindseymatz:
quinciesullivan:
emilygnar:
kaylaisyodaddy:
to unsilent night tres?
MEEEEE. In fear and faith. Fuuuck yeah, man.
We stillll goin?
Dis nigguh goin :)
COUNT ME IN BABESICALS ;).
“People were inside, wearing only towels and as I walked up to ask for...”
– Jason Dann’s 9 Circles of Hell
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POP A BITCH
Bought someone’s first Christmas present, yoga with Emily (Way too much stretching), Mackenzie picked me up, Poppin bitches (Not as painful as it sounds..), Pei Wei with her and Andy, and finally sleep.
Tomorrow should be good, I think It’s Lindsey, Mackenzie, Party time :O? HOPEFULLY SNOW (Fingahs crossed).
Yesterday
Was snowww, and maybe Friday we’ll get some more?
Morning time with Mackenzie, we went to the park and took pictures in the snow that I need to put on here :). A guy told me his entire life story at school, and about how he was ‘So sad because he’d lost the love of his life that he met when he was 5 and planned on marrying.’ I fear for my sanity if that happens again....
Holy shit snow!!!
Mmm youza sexy chic!
Mom: Here's my favorite wool knit socks.
Me: Cool mom.
Mom: They've got some little holes in the back so they're kind of sexy.
I'm so incredibly lucky
I have nothing to worry about except her, and I enjoy this because when things run smoothly, or difficultly, she’s still there. And when she’s there, I know, I haven’t felt this complete since March of 2008 :).
Watchcoketalk:
This is a filthy mess and I love it.
Oh, yes. This was, nice.